Here Hope is Real

Here hope is real
So open and feel
The pain inside
I hide I hide.

So sweet and innocent sitting in my chair
But when he blew up it was such a scare
I can see it now oh so vividly
But I did not know what it did to me.

Here it’s safe to talk it out
Here it’s safe if I need to shout
Here I have real friends who are on my side
Here I have courage to find my child inside.

I scraped and I dug and wrote it all out,
I read to my friends what it was about,
My words brought up memories of their past
We shared our secrets so they would not last.

I feel the wave grabbing my breath,
I feel my child squeezing my chest,
I feel the wave crashing on, my body breaks,
My tears burst out, my body shakes.

My scared inner child needs me now,

To heal his pain I’m not sure how
I cuddle my child for the pain he knew,
I let him cry until his tears turn blue.

Sixty years of deeply buried fears
Twenty minutes of gushing tears,
Ten breaths in and eight breaths out
I feel much lighter when I go about.

My friends say, you really look different,
Your face is relaxed, your eyes have a glint,
Your voice is strong, a crutch you don’t need,
My scared inner child, Fresh Start has freed.

Thank you so much, oh God, what can I say,
Now I am happy to greet a new day.
The week was hard but I feel like I won,
Thank you, Fresh Start, for all you have done.

TJ